An excerpt from my healing sessions with a local Reiki-healer and spiritual guide. We begin with a Reiki session and then I do a guided meditation with her. We see where it will take us each time.

In this visualization I find myself as a man. I have a big belly, I am wearing leather hiking boots and leiderhosen. I am wearing a typical felt hat with a band around it. I live in a mountain village in a Bavarian style cottage and it is warm out; springtime.
I am a jolly fellow, I like to dine with others. I think I may own an inn.
For my employment, I have to kill pigs, I must be a butcher since I sell the meat.
I am unmarried, I live with my cat. I allow a little boy, about 5 years old, to live in the hay in my stables. I otherwise do not take care of him, he is scared of me but has no place else to go. He works for me a bit by carrying the food buckets to the pigs, as well as taking away waste from the butcher shop. I feed the boy a little bit for these chores.
I get the feeling that in this lifetime, I was not a good man; I was selfish and greedy. I am sort of nice to the boy but I am a drinker and sometimes to excess. Maybe I was mean to him then. This makes the present-day me quite sad.
At the end of my life I choked to death on a chicken bone around age 50. I was alone. The boy was about 10 and still living with me. Looking back at this self; I feel gluttony, I have regrets. I was always so harsh judging. This is what I learned in this life.
The boy might be my present-day biological father. This boy is learning how to be fearful. My guide asked why did this boy come back as my father? To teach me to love when I feel hate or anger. Although I never knew him beyond 3 weeks old, I feel that this father had a bad temper.

Then I go to another visialization…

I am in a magical place. I am hovering over a crater lake or pond in a lush area. Around me are relatives, guides and angels. One looks like my great-grandmother; her face looks the same but she also looks like a elf. I ask, What can I do for my body? She replies, To heal it you must listen to your self (intuition). I drift down to a seated position. On the left side of me is my uncle Tom. I ask him what can I do for my body? He does not have an answer. There is a man with a beard across from me, it is the same wise man as last week. He says, Talk is cheap, I have to apply myself.

We ask if these beings have any gifts for me. He gives me a small silver fish charm. What does this mean? Fish are slippery, the light shines and reflects on them in many ways. I am also given a toy boat, it is to take me home. Where is home? By the sea. In my next life, home will be by the sea. What am I learning from this life? To die gracefully. What can I do for my body? Live full of love. What can I do for my muscles? Keep doing what you are doing, eat carrots! Someone on the right side of me puts down acorns, sage and dark coloured berries, and maybe a coconut.

After I become quiet, my guide writes these thoughts that are sent to her:

It is in the presentation of the soul Pauline that we gather here together to bring light and love into the domain of her body. Her body is trying to shut down any dormancies that are and have been the target of this creation, and with this, she will be able to feel the love for herself that she has been hiding from. This love will fill and activate the cells of her body and will bring light to the areas that are dark and dim. For the awareness of self is a token of appreciation of bringing in the gifts that have been hiding for so long. And, as Simon the drummer might say, every beat brings in the resonance of a feeling that is bright to the ears. This is the feeling of appreciation for the many sounds that will awaken her soul.