An excerpt from my healing sessions with a local Reiki-healer and spiritual guide. We begin with a Reiki session and then I do a guided meditation with her. We see where it will take us each time.

We asked for guides, angels and loved ones connected to Pauline to come in and help her on her journey.

I access Pauline’s energy field, and I noticed less twitching in her legs. She has a very peaceful energy field, and I also notice that her left arm is stronger with more energy radiating outward, and the same with her left leg.

Then I see a spirit coming in, and again I see the same monk that I have seen before. He has with him many other monks, but they are all young boys. The children seat themselves cross legged around this table and they start to sing a mantra. I hear ‘ohm padme hum’ and the sounds in this room echo as the vibrations become stronger and stronger.  As they repeat the same mantra over and over, I hear the monk saying:

“It is within the mantra that we release our demons and trust in the outcome. It is within this mantra that we keep ourselves balanced and say our intent. Within these vibrations we vocalize our needs and send them out. Pauline is now in a transition, and within this transition she is maintaining her balance as she stops fighting and going against the stream. From now on she will do things because she wants to do them and she will adjust her lifestyle to her needs. And we can see her using this mantra to balance herself, by saying it out loud, it will bring the balance of vibrations in her body. Part of being in the moment, part of being in the now.”

The monk then starts to sing the mantra as well and the sound of this mantra vibrates through the room. The monk then shows me a vision of a owl.  And he says, “Pauline is like an owl, she will search and spread her wings and she will be an advocate for many“.

And the monk says her daughter Madeline Lily is trying her strength and this strength is huge.  He says this,

“As a child she was put in this world as the youngest one, and her strength is a token of not giving in. When you do not give in, that gives you strength and power. This is a gene that she has gotten from Simon’s side of the family. For as he well knows, his father can be a very strong, determined person as well. A lot calmer now in his older years but as a child he was a very strong-willed person and, as he himself will remember, he wanted to do what he wanted to do.

For Madeline it is a form of strength, for when you give in, the feeling of surrender and weakness will start to kick in. What Simon did for his daughter was breaking the energy. And this then was given to her as a sign that she would not continue holding the strength anymore.

Madeline does not like the word sorry because in a past life she had to say the word sorry a lot. She was then a maid, only seven years old living in England. As a child she was sent out to work where they washed clothing in a factory type of place. Her own family was very poor, her mother was sick and there was no father in sight. This father was taken away by the Germans. Madeline was the eldest one of four children and very mature, she was allowed to work in this laundry facility and got food for her work. This work was hard for this little one and they were very strict with her as well. Every time she spilled water, or the clothes did not come clean enough to their liking, she would have to stay extra hours at work and the word sorry was repeated over and over. This little girl now knows that the word sorry does not resonate well in her body, and something within herself makes her cringe.

And this indeed plays part in this life. You might want to rephrase this by saying, “I did not mean to do this” or “I will not do this again”. Or you might have to say, “Maybe we can make up with a big hug, and everything will then fly away and it will be taken care of”. The word sorry does not sit well for her.

In that lifetime which was in the year 1941, times were tough. And she only lived to the age of 20 years old and TB got her lungs and she was taken home.

In this lifetime her stubbornness will take her to places where she will be able to do what she wants to do. Nobody will tell her what to do and this stems back from that life. She was humiliated because she was very short then. She needed a bucket to stand by the sink, and her short arms could not always reach the bottom of the laundry sink; so a lot of water was added for her to clean the clothes. And she was always very careful and tiptoed around some of the workers. Some were nice, others were not.

When she gets older she will overcome the word sorry but to this day that word does not fit with her. Give her some clothes to wash in the sink and soon she will say, “I don’t want to do this anymore”. For now she is only able to see sorry as a word of punishment. When she grows older that will change”.